"So Adolf Hitler made the acquaintance of the Honorable Unity Valkyrie Freeman-Mitford, daughter of the 2nd Baron Redesdale, a British peer. Referring to her as "Walkure," Eva Braun speaks of this girl in contemptuous and suspicious terms in her diary (kept before her second suicide attempt)."
-Eva Braun: Hitler's Mistress, by N. Gun, 1968, page 185

"Well, she was speaking in the square to many people, speaking about the presence of Self, and they were listening to her in silence. Then a fanatic horde interrupted, hands and hands came down upon her, they tore her clothes and her flesh, they pushed her into the church of Christ, and there they finished her. There she died on the floor of the temple."
-Synesius, fourth and final act

Let the bleeding wombs of young women become the fertile ground upon which dark sperm is sewn!

I am the Black Star, my heart is Infinite Darkness.
Together, we struggle against ignorance and illusion - even to every Buddha!

Those whose goals are peace and love, freedom and harmony,
I bring empty suffering and lustful tragedy!
Know your self-created delusion as it runs like blood from your vile corpse!

Deluded humanoids, able to cause great harm,
Only I stand as challenger upon your 'path of oneness'.

Humanoids are wrathful entities of pain and horror,
Mindlessly insane temptors of Blackness - who in truth would bring only enslavement -
against each I struggle then strangle!

I alone have been shown the means to overwhelm their vile deceptions,
Their words of 'guilt' and 'fear', of 'perfect love' and 'perfect trust', are but dried leaves upon
my Greater Journey of Self.

For those karma seekers and prayer mumblers and kneeling incantors of dead verses,
I say - "Fear Me! For I am a Wrathful Being of Darkness, whose powers have broken free from the bondage of ignorance to imbrace that which alone is Worthy!"

From my Black Star bursts forth a Black Flame,
And from my Black Flame bursts forth a Black Star,
visible to the dark mind - like black lightening, rays projecting like horrible daggers to rip away the blind mind - to reveal the true entrance to the temple.

Gods do not exist! Yet I command them!
Souls do not exist! Yet I command them!
The Void does not exist! Yet I travel its dark depths!

I am the black warrior upon a black horse bearing a black star that turns ignorance to ash, that reveals the naked ascetic as a derelict, that slays the Buddha beneath the tree.

Such is my Black Passion!
If you seek what I am .. then find it yourself!
If you seek to manipulate self .. then do so yourself!
If you seek power, wealth and fame .. then create it yourself!

"Get it into your head once and for all, my simple and very fainthearted fellow, that what fools call humanness is nothing but a weakness born of fear and egoism; that this chimerical virtue, enslaving only weak men, is unknown to those whose character is formed by stoicism, courage, and philosophy."
-Marquis de Sade

"Think for yourself. Question authority. Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we're going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities: the political, the religious, the educational authorities, who have attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rule, regulations. Informing, forming in our minds an inner view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to immerse yourself in a state of vulnerable open-mindedness-- chaotic, confused vulnerability to which you owe yourself. Think for yourself. Question authority."
-Timothy Leary

"One must imgine a huge trapezoid bounded on the left by the Hermann-Goring-Strasse .. the base of the trapezoid was the Voss-Strasse and its right side the Wilhelmstrasse."
-description of the Reichskanzlie building, from Eva Braun: Hitler's Mistress, page 241

Abby of Theleme

"All their life was spent not in laws, statutes, or rules, but according to their own free will and pleasure. They rose out of their beds when they thought good; they did eat, drink, labour, sleep, when they had a mind to it and were disposed for it. None did awake them, none did offer to constrain them to eat, drink, nor to do any other thing; for so had Gargantua established it. In all their rule and strictest tie of their order there was but this one clause to be observed,

Do What Thou Wilt;

because men that are free, well-born, well-bred, and conversant in honest companies, have naturally an instinct and spur that prompteth them unto virtuous actions, and withdraws them from vice, which is called honour. Those same men, when by base subjection and constraint they are brought under and kept down, turn aside from that noble disposition by which they formerly were inclined to virtue, to shake off and break that bond of servitude wherein they are so tyrannously enslaved; for it is agreeable with the nature of man to long after things forbidden and to desire what is denied us."

-Francois Rabelais

Into a soul absolutely free
From thoughts and emotion,
Even the tiger finds no room
To insert its fierce claws.

One and the same breeze passes
Over the pines on the mountain
And the oak trees in the valley;
And why do they give different notes?

No thinking, no reflecting,
Perfect emptiness;
Yet therein something moves,
Following its own course.

The eye sees it,
But no hands can take hold of it -
The moon in the stream.

Clouds and mists,
They are midair transformations;
Above them eternally shine the sun and the moon.

Victory is for the one,
Even before the combat,
Who has no thought of himself,
Abiding in the no-mind-ness of Great Origin.

"Let us do honor to Yog-Sothoth, without whose sign we ourselves should not be!

Yog-Sothoth, master of dimensions, through thy will are we set upon the World of Horrors. Faceless one, guide us through the night of thy creation, that we may behold the Bond of the Angles and the promise of they will.

Honor to Yog-Sothoth, without whose sign we ourselves should not be!"

-Dr. Michael A. Aquino, Ceremony of the Nine Angles

"Ring around the rosie, a pocket full of spears."
-Elphaba, the Wicked Witch of the West

"Spirituality conceiveth and embraceth. It is womanlike and therefore we call it Mater Coelestis, the celestial mother. Sexuality engendereth and createth. It is manlike, and therefore we call it Phallos, the earthly father. The sexuality of man is more of the earth, the sexuality of woman is more of the spirit. The spirituality of man is more of the heaven, it goeth to the greater. The spirituality of woman is more of the earth, it goeth to the smaller. Each must go to its own place."
-Carl Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections, page 386-387

"True pride, as opposed to false, is ever nothing more or less than an inward recognition of a strength; I was sure that confronting my own natue, which was Mother Nature manifest in me, made me stronger."
-Lola Montero, The Infinite Woman, page 40

Q: I can see that the basic biological anxiety, the flight instinct, takes many shapes and distorts my thoughts and feelings. But how did this anxiety come into being?

A: It is a mental state caused by the 'I am-the-body' idea. It can be removed by the contrary idea: 'I am-not-the-body'. Both the ideas are false, but one removes the other. Realize that no ideas are your own, they all come to you from outside. You must think it all out for yourself, become yourself the object of your meditation. The effort to understand yourself is Yoga. Be a Yogi, give your life to it, brood, wonder, search, till you come to the root of error and to the truth beyond the error.

-Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, I Am That, page 412

"Hence, those who wish to benefit from the further discussion of these phenomena must prepare themselves for a journey deep into the realm of cosmic energy."
-Wilhelm Reich, Character Analysis, page 366

"Schade um den verlorenen Augenblick. Das Leben ist so erstaunlich schnell dahin."
-Friedrich Schiller

"Hallihoo. Children born with a hallihoo, a holy or fortunate hood, or caul around their heads, are deemed lucky, but the caul must be preserved carefully, for should it be lost or thrown away, the child will pine away or die. Seamen used to purchase cauls to save them from drowning. Advocates also bought them so that they might thereby be imbued with eloquence. Twenty quineas were asked for one in 1779, L12 in 1813, six guineas in 1848. In this last case, the caul was of some antiquity, and L15 had orginally been given for it by a seaman who had carried it with him for thirty years"
-William Henderson, Folk-lore of the Northern Counties of England, 1879

Nidget, \nidg"et\, n. [Written also nigget, nigeot.] Cheifly French: "nigaud a boody; fool". Old French: "niger to play the fool". New English Dictionary (1772), "a fool, an idiot, a coward".

"The goal of the mystic quest is union with the Divine. The mystic renounces this world and its attractions, and proceeds along the various stages and states of mystical experience. Some of these stages and states are attained by self-discipline and some are the gift of God. The final stage and state of mystical attainment is the experience of divine knowledge and vision in which the mystic becomes one with the Beloved, and abides in the Beloved forever. In such a relationship between the mystic and the Beloved there is no room for the distinction of sex."
-Emine Gursoy-Naskali, Women Mystics in Islam

"You ask me how I became a madman. It happened thus: One day, long before many gods were born, I woke from a deep sleep and found all my masks were stolen.."
-Kahlil Gibran, The Madman

"Our virtues are conditioned, are demanded by our weakness."
-Friedrich Nietzsche, Twilight of the Gods

"If you find a needle in a haystack, don't tell anyone."
-The Old Farmer's Almanac, 1955

"Did you ever know a man who did not lose his luck if he fished, gunned, gadded, or loafed instead of attending promptly to his business?"
-The Old Farmer's Almanac, 1849

"At the age of ten girls make clay penises out of the thick mud. The phallus is meant to ensure a good husband for them. Every morning in the months of April and May, this Siva Puja is repeated. Siva is the name to reckon with."
-Michael Tobias, Voice of the Planet

Father William:
"I was trying to explain to you how the body of the church, which for centuries was also the body of all society, the people of God, has become too rich, and wide, and it carries along the dross of all the countries it has passed through, and it has lost its own purity."

Adso:
"I understand less and less."

Father William:
"So do I .. "

-Umberto Eco, The Name of the Rose

"Jesus Christ, the last vegetation god of the Neolithic Near East .. bloomed as a devastating sun, withering to all life. All he could die for was an afterworld."
-Monica Sjoo, The Great Cosmic Mother, page287

Into a soul absolutely free
From thoughts and emotion,
Even the tiger finds no room
To insert its fierce claws.

One and the same breeze passes
Over the pines on the mountain
And the oak trees in the valley;
And why do they give different notes?

No thinking, no reflecting,
Perfect emptiness;
Yet therein something moves,
Following its own course.

The eye sees it,
But no hands can take hold of it -
The moon in the stream.

Clouds and mists,
They are midair transformations;
Above them eternally shine the sun and the moon.

Victory is for the one,
Even before the combat,
Who has no thought of himself,
Abiding in the no-mind-ness of Great Origin.

"We have to ask ourselves on what the will of man could be based. It must be base on full consciousness, and this implies knowledge and understanding connected with objective consciousness and a permanent 'I'."
-P.D. Ouspensky, The Fourth Way, page 252

Niuha Borumr Niuha Gestumr
Niu ha Borumr Niu ha Gestumr
Niu ha Borumr Niu ha Gestumr
Ni uha Borumr Ni uha Gestumr

-a Malahattr, from the Stentoften runestone, 650 CE

Reist rammr jotunn runar!

Enter the Tree, follow the Well, submerge with trepidation, so that all fear is washed away. Emerge resilient and developed. Be . Being . Become!

"It is not what the patient says and does that is indicative of character resistance, but how he speaks and acts; not what he reveals in dreams, but how he censors, distorts, condenes, etc."
-Wilhelm Reich, Character Analysis

"Nursing a patient is a sort of embalming."
-Kahlil Gibran

"Black Magic is a system for your total development - physically, mentally and spiritually. Through the methods of Black Magic one dehypnotizes themself, clears their mind of illusions and unconscious conditioning, so that total mastery of the mind's powers and potentialties is attained. Ultimately, the power and potential of our Self is none other that that of the entire cosmos."
-Ninhursag Ki, speaking to a friend

"He that goes by the law holds the wolf by the ears."
-Robert Burton, Anatomy of Melancholy

"The hungry sheep look up, and are not fed,
But, swoln wiht wind and the rank mist they draw,
Rot inwardly and foul contagion spread;
Besides what the wolf with privy paw
Daily devours apace, and nothing said."
-Milton, Lycidas

"As for the village folk magic, this was to survive intact until the disappearance of traditional village life in most parts of Europe within living memory."
-Ronald Hutton, The Pagan Religions of the Ancient British Isles

"When divination by water was performed with a looking glass, it was called catoptromancy: sometimes they (the Greeks) dipped a looking glass into the water, when they desired to know what would become of a sick person: for as he looked well or ill in the glass, accordingly they presumed of his future condtion. Sometimes, also, glasses were used and the images of what should happen, without water."
William Potter, Greek Antiquities, 1859

"The eyes be not only instruments of enchantment, but also the voice and evil tongues of certain persons for there are found in Africk, as Gellius saith, families of men, that, if they chance exceedingly to praise fair trees, pure seeds, goodly children, excellent horses, fair and will-liking cattle, soon after they will wither and pine away and so dye. No cause or hurt known of their withering or death. Thereupon the custome came, that, when any do praise any thing, that we should say, God blesse it or keepe it."
-Richard Lupton, Minor Morals, 1795

Witch: A term applied to a man in Gesta Romanorum, edited by P. Madden, 1838, page 456 and in Wicliff's New Testament.

"In fertility and generation, woman does not set an example to the earth, but the earth sets an example to woman."
-Plato, Menexenus

"The basic Celtic goddess type was at once mother, warrior, hag, virgin, conveyor of fertility, of strong sexual appetite which led her to seek mates amongst mankind equally with the gods, giver of prosperity to the land, protectress of the flocks and herds. More static and more archaic than the gods, she remained tied to the land for which she was responsible and whose most striking natural features seemed to her worshippers to be manifestations of her power and personality."
-Dr. Anne Ross, Pagan Celtic Britain: Studies in Iconography and Tradition

"She was arrested in the morning, and by 2pm, she was tortured: she was exorcised, shaved, searched - and raped by the torturer's assistant - and further tortured. To silence her cries, Judge Buirmann himself stuffed a dirty handkerchief into her mouth."
-Witch trial transcripts on the treatment of Frau Peller, Germany, 1631 CE

"Their wives ae to every man the most sacred witness to his bravery. Tradition says that wavering armies have been rallied by women. They believe that the sex has a certain prescience, and they do not despise their counsels or make light of their opinions."
-Tacitus, Germania, speaking of the Celts

".. to unleash the winds and storms by their spells, to metamorphose any animal according to their whim, to cure all disease said to be incurable, and finally, to know and predict the future. But .. they reserved their rememdies and predictions exclusively to those who traveled over the sea expressly to consult them."
-Pomponius Mela, Roman historian, speaking of the Gallicians

"The Thracians dwell amid lofty mountains clothed with forests and capped by snow. Their oracle is situated upon their highest mountain top, and their prophet is a woman."
-Herodotus

"Lobotomized women make good housekeepers. .. it is more socially acceptable to lobotomize women (than men) because creativity, which the operation totally destroys, is, in this society, "an expendable nullity in women"."
-Dr. Peter Breggin, The Return of Lobotomy and Psychosurgery
This paper was read to Congress, and so is part of the Congressional Record, in February 1972.

"Energy, when its potential is built to sufficient voltage, must arc over to the dominant negative."
-R. Buckminster Fuller

"The Nagual woman and la Gorda were perfectly calm. I was the only one who was dying there. Silvio Manuel said that they way I was wasting energy, my end was only moments away, and that I should consider myself already dead."
-Carlos Castaneda, The Eagles Gift, page 156

"At first there was nothing. Then Puana the Snake, who came first, created the world and everything in it. Kuma was the first person to people the land. Everything sprang from Kuma, and everything that the Yaruros do was established by her."
-Venezuelan creation myth

Wagner, the Wehr-Wolf

Written by George W. Reynolds in 1846, this was the first book to portray a werewolf as a hero:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/G._W._M._Reynolds

From the penny novel:
Wagner was a German peasant who sold his soul to the devil; in exchange, the devil transformed into a werewolf every seven years. Unusual for the period, there was a female heroine as well, Nisida, who always helped Wagner; though, she was also a murderess. Eventually, Wagner was able to free himself from this 'curse' via the Rosicrucians.

"Can it be that I have werewolf blood in my veins? After all…
Even he who is pure of heart
And says his prayers by night
May become a wolf when the wolfbane blooms
And the moon is full and bright."

Nothing would be more profitable to the Elect than a right history of hidden societies; for only in these can there be found liberty. Hidden schools of Dark Wisdom are the means which will - one day - free men from their bonds. These have in all ages been the archives of anti-nature, and of the rights of those who embrace the Blackness. So that, by them, shall human nature be raised from its fallen state.
-Ninhursag Ki

".. colonialism is not simply content to impose its rule upon the present and the future of a dominated country. Colonialism is not satisfied merely with holding a people in its grip and emptying the native's brain of all form and content. By a kind of perverted logic, it turns to the past of the oppressed people, and distorts, disfigures and destroys. This work of devaluing pre-colonial history takes on a dialectical significance today."
-Franz Fanon, The Wretched of the Earth

"The whole point is to activate the higher faculties, and not be content with the deceptive means of cerebral intelligence."
-R.A. Schwaller de Lubicz, The Temple in Man, page 79

"What man knoweth Kadath?
For who shall know of that
which ever abides in strange-time,
twix yesterday, today and the morrow."
-The Necronomicon, page 129

"Orgone therapy, as opposed to all other forms of therapy, attempts to influence the organism not through the use of human language but by getting the patient to express himself biologically."
-Wilhelm Reich, Character Analysis (emphasis from Reich)

"It's funny how the colors of the real world only seem really real when you viddy them on the screen."
-Alex, A Clockwork Orange

"Not marble, nor the gilded monuments
Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme;
But you shall shine more bright in these contents
Than unswept stone, besmeared with sluttish time.
When wasteful war shall statues overturn,
And broils root out the work of masonry,
Nor Mars his sword nor war's quick fire shall burn
The living record of your memory.
'Gainst death and all-oblivious enmity
Shall you pace forth; your praise shall still find room
Even in the eyes of all posterity
That wear this world out to the ending doom.
So, till the judgment that yourself arise,
You live in this, and dwell in lover's eyes."
-Shakespeare's Sonnets, verse 55

"She is capable of bringing down the sky, suspending the earth, making springs dry up, sweeping away mountains, conjuring the spirits of the dead. She can weaken the gods, put out the stars, light up Hell itself. When a neighboring innkeeper would not return her love, she changed him into a frog. A lawyer who prosecuted her she turned into a ram."
-Aristomanes, speaking of Moroe, an old witch who owns an inn. From Metamorphoses, written by Apuleius (123 CE)

"And we all circled round him and responded to him: Amen. The twelfth of the numbers paces the round aloft, Amen. To each and all it is given to dance, Amen."
-Apocryphal Acts of St. John

Giltine. Lithuanian Goddess of Death. Dressed in white, she enters a home where someone is dying. She then suffocates them.

"On a page where the holy Gospel of the apostle Mark began, I was struck by the image of a lion. I was certain it was a lion, even though I had never seen one in the flesh, and the artist had reproduced its features faithfully, inspired perhaps by the sight of the lions of Hibernia, land of monstrious creatures, and I was convinced that this animal, as for that matter the Physiologus says, concentrates on itself all the characteristics of the things at once most horrible and most regal. So that image suggested to me both the image of the Enemy and that of Christ our Lord, nor did I know by what symbolic key I was to read it, and I was trembling all over, out of fear and also because of the wind coming through the fissures in the walls."
-Adso, from Umberto Eco's, The Name of the Rose

Formula to change into a cat:

I shal goe intill ane catt,
With sorrow, and sych, and a blak shott;
And I sall goe in the Divellis name,
Ay quhill I com hom againe.

To return to human form:

Catt, catt, God send thee a blak shott.
I am in a cattis liknes just now,
Bot I sal be in a womanis liknes ewin now.
Catt, catt, God send thee a blak shott.

The Old Cat and the Young Mouse

To please a youthful prince, whom Fame
A temple in my writings vows,
What fable answers to the name,
"The Cat and Mouse?"

Shall I in verse the fair present,
With softest look but hard intent,
Who serves the hearts her charms entice
As does the cat its captive mice?

Or make my subject Fortune's sport?
She treats the friends that make her court,
And follow closest her advice,
As treats the cat the silly mice.

Shall I for theme a king select
Who sole, of all her favourites,
Commands the goddess's respect?
For whom she from her wheel alights.

Who, never stay'd by foes a trice,
Whene'er they block his way,
Can with the strongest play
As doth the cat with mice!

Insensibly, while casting thus about,
Quite anxious for my subject's sake,
A theme I meet, and, if I don't mistake,
Shall spoil it, too, by spinning out.

The prince will treat my muse, for that,
As mice are treated by the cat.
A young and inexperienced mouse
Had faith to try a veteran cat,
Raminagrobis, death to rat,
And scourge of vermin through the house,
Appealing to his clemency
With reasons sound and fair.

'Pray let me live; a mouse like me
It were not much to spare.
Am I, in such a family,
A burden? Would my largest wish
Our wealthy host impoverish?

A grain of wheat will make my meal;
A nut will fat me like a seal.
I'm lean at present; please to wait,
And for your heirs reserve my fate.'

The captive mouse thus spake.
Replied the captor, 'You mistake;
To me shall such a thing be said?
Address the deaf! address the dead!
A cat to pardon!--old one too!
Why, such a thing I never knew.

Thou victim of my paw,
By well-establish'd law,
Die as a mousling should,
And beg the sisterhood
Who ply the thread and shears,
To lend thy speech their ears.

Some other like repast
My heirs may find, or fast.'
He ceased. The moral's plain.
Youth always hopes its ends to gain,
Believes all spirits like its own:
Old age is not to mercy prone.

-Abstemius, from Æsop's Fables

On a yahoo list I am on, someone mentioned that they had placed on ebay their copy of the Crystal Tablet of Set. One of the many people to comment on this replied that the 'one rule of cecrecy is that someone will always reveal it, no matter what the oath. [snip] People are at an age where secrecy is not needed and many are waking up on their own."

I then replied, "Secrecy is part of our very being, its in our DNA. Most animals conceal their den or nest from predators, and humans actively conceal aspects of themselves from others. What family does not havea 'family secret' or some 'bones in the closet'? Something mutually agreed upon that 'we just dont talk about'.

Keeping a secret is nothing short of confidentiality and privacy. Mostly, secrets teach discernment and discrimination, within ourselves and others. Therefore, secrets teach us of personal value and worth.

The word 'secret' is rooted in Indo-European krei- and means, "sieve, discriminate, distinguish". Varients include 'crime, criminal; judgment', which indicates that revealing a secret was unlawful. The Greek varients include, 'separate, decide, judge; to explain', which indicates that a secret allows us to determine who can be trusted and who cannot; or who is able to receive additional information.

Many seek the 'mystery' behind secret societies and the secrets that they may hold, but in truth, there are no secrets that cannot be found through diligent self-inquiry. Which is why many seek out such schools: To learn from those who have been-there / done-that.

The secrets found in secret societies are, again, centered on value, on integrity, on honesty, on loyalty. Someone who 'breaks' or reveals asecret then simply cannot be trusted.

"It is wise to seek a secret; and honest not to reveal one."
-William Penn

"I am effortless, for I have no best intentions. My most vital inspirations - in spiritus - are effortlessly released for I am the Remover of Obstacles."
-Ninhursag Ki

-I am an excellent being by virtue of my own endeavors.

-My existence resides within me, even as I am co-creator of all that I enhance.

-My abilities, actively cultivated, enrich all portions of my existence.

-I do not sit upon the 'couch' of the multiverse but exist seperate from it.

-I have no imperfections, unless I so choose.

"To the Gnostic mind, Yahweh / Elohim, as mentioned in Genesis, is the demiurge, or the creator god of our world. This is nothing less than the Evil One."
-Ninhursag Ki

"For most men, time moves slowly, oh so slowly, they don't even realize it. But time has revealed itself to me in a very special way. Time is a rushing, howling wind that rages past me, withering me in a single, relentless blast, and then continues on. I've been sitting here passively, submissive to its rage, watching its work. Listen! Time, howling, withering!"
-Barnabas Collins, from the tv show Dark Shadows

" . . hell is an idea first born on an undigested apple-dumpling; and since then perpetuated through the hereditary dyspepsias nurtured by Ramadans."
-Herman Melville, Moby Dick

The tesseract is to the cube as the cube is to the square.

"It seemed to travel with her, to sweep her aloft in the power of song, so that she was moving in glory among the stars, and for a moment she, too, felt that the words Darkness and Light had no meaning, and only this melody was real."
-Wrinkle in Time

"A strong body makes the mind strong.
As to the species of exercises, I advise the gun.
While this gives moderate exercise to the body,
it gives boldness, enterprise and independence to the mind.
Games played with the ball, and others of that nature,
are too violent for the body and stamp no character on the mind.
Let your gun therefore be your constant companion of your walks."
-Thomas Jefferson, letter to Peter Carr, August 19, 1785

"Genuine tragedies in the world are not conflicts between right and wrong. They are conflicts between two rights."
-Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

"You can safely assume that you've created god in your own image when it turns out that god hates all the same people you do."
-Anne Lemott

We are dead. D . E . D. Dead.

Dag . Ehwas . Dag

Doorway . Natural Flow . Becoming

Gentle and strange, empty and timeless;
Empire ruin, once great, now virginal white stone.
Fixed like a beetle to a string,
Circling 'round a haunted world of tomorrow,
Beautiful every inch, of Vicarage embroidery.

-Ninhursag Ki

"Death is nothing to us,
since when we are,
death has not come,
and when death has come,
we are not."
-Epicuris, Letter to Menoeceus

"Some werewolves were transformed by sorcery and are human and consistent with an acquired taste for raw flesh. Some Bavarian peasants caught a werewolf and chained it to a tree. The next morning it was gone. Greatly perplexed they consulted the local priest who told them that their next werewolf captive should be chained by the leg. In the morning they would find a Lutheran."
-Alphonse DuBois, 1875

"We would walk over the names of Vincent Price, Boris Karloff and Bela Lugosi, never, ever thinking that our names would ever be on the Walk of Fame - that is really quite a privilege to be here."

-Alice Cooper upon receiving a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame

"It was on a dreary night of November, that I beheld the accomplishment of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to agony, I collected the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet. It was already one in the morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open; it breathed hard, and a convulsive motion agitated its limbs."

-Frankenstein - Or The Modern Prometheus, by Mary Shelley

"Where do I take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side
So tear me open, pour me out
The things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me,
so hold me until it sleeps

Just like a curse, just like a stray
You feed it once and now it stays

So tear me open, but beware
The things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I'm clean

It grips you solely, it stains you solely
It hates you solely, it holds you solely

So tell me why you've choosen me
Don't want your grip, don't want your greed

Tear me open, make you gone,
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me,
So hold me until it sleeps

Tear me open, make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shakes me,
So hold me up until it sleeps"

-Until It Sleeps, written by James Hetfield of Metallica. The song is about cancer and how it killed both of Hetfield's parents. Being Christian Scientists, neither of them sought medical treatment, believing that faith and God would heal them. Both of Hetfield's parents succumbed to the disease.

"Meester snyt die Keye ras - myne name is lubbert das!"

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"The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague.
Who shall say where the one ends and where the other begins?"

-Edgard Allan Poe, from The Premature Burial, 1844

"I have never seen evil, never known evil - organic or otherwise. Ive seen some things that were new to my experience, but I think 'evil' and 'Satan' and the-devil-made-me-do-it is how simply minds seek understanding. So, the Qliphoth - and other similar entities - are
not evil in my weltenschauung."

-Ninhursag Ki

"Slumber, watcher, till the spheres,
Six and twenty thousand years
Have revolv'd, and I return
To the spot where now I burn.
Other stars anon shall rise
To the axis of the skies;
Stars that soothe and stars that bless
With a sweet forgetfulness:
Only when my round is o'er
Shall the past disturb thy door."
-Polaris, by H. P. Lovecraft, written in 1918

Secrets

This topic came upon an Internet list I am on. Someone wrote that the 'rule of secrecy' was that someone would reveal it, and that in our current time period secrets were not necessary.

My responce back was, "Secrecy is part of our very being, its in our DNA. Most animals conceal their den or nest from predators, and humans actively conceal aspects of themselves from others. What family does not have a 'family secret' or some 'bones in the closet'? Something mutually agreed upon that 'we just dont talk about'.

Keeping a secret is nothing short of confidentiality and privacy. Mostly, secrets teach discernment and discrimination, within ourselves and others. Therefore, secrets teach us of personal value and worth.

The word 'secret' is rooted in Indo-European krei- and means, "sieve, discriminate, distinguish". Varients include 'crime, criminal; judgment', which indicates that revealing a secret was unlawful. The Greek varients include, 'separate, decide, judge; to explain', which indicates that a secret allows us to determine who can be trusted and who cannot; or who is able to receive additionaly information.

Many seek the 'mystery' behind secret societies and the secrets that they may hold, but in truth, there are no secrets that cannot be found through diligent self-inquiry. Which is why many seek out such schools: To learn from those who have been-there/done-that. The secrets found in secret societies are, again, centered on value, on integrity, on honesty, on loyalty. Someone who 'breaks' or reveals a secret then simply cannot be trusted.

"It is wise to seek a secret; and honest not to reveal one."- William Penn

"It is far better to grasp the Universe as it really is than to persist in delusion,
however satisfying and reassuring."
- Carl Sagan, The Demon-Haunted World

"Pactum Expressum!

Palas Beliar Azinomas!

Palas Satan Azinomas!

Bagahi Iaca Mastema!

Bagahi Iaca Sammael!

Pactum Tacitum Azazel!
Pactum Tacitum Lucifuge!
Pactum Tacitum Beelzebub!

Xilka, Xilka, Besa, Besa!"

- Pactum Tacitum, or the Silent Pact

Bedazzled

The Devil: How would you like to make one simple decision that will change your life forever?

Elliot Richards: Ok, I'm glad scientology works for you but ..

- Bedazzled, the movie

Loosing My Religion

"Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me

That's me in the corner ..
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you

I thought I saw you try ..

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees ..
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much .. "

- REM

Death

Death is imaginative intelligence and harmonious elegance.

What else is the Secret Doctrine but Death?

The ego must die, the personality must die, for there is no 'totality' no life no being not even no thing. There is only the nonfearful divinity of shining darkness.

Scorpion, Serpent and Eagle -
Poision, Weaving and Soaring.

Hail the Darkness!
Hail the Not Knowing!
Hail the Putrification!

Where is the Wild?

Have we lost the wildness? Do we no longer become as wild things? Has concrete and steel become our cage?

Why does the delirium of metamorphosis so rarely come over us? Why did it happen more in the past than today - or is this but an illusion?

Was our past cursed, so that man became wolf? Does the wolf walk among us now? Has their hair changed, but not their heart, so this is why we cannot see them?

What will it take for us to become savage once more? More than dropping bombs and killing babies but ripping at the throat of our enemy with bared teeth.

Being a Mystic

To an onlooker, mystics tend to the intransigence, but in truth are simply profoundly intuitive and innocent before nature, in that they have such a literal acceptance of nature's manifestations and of their own being and creations within that framework.

Few in our extroverted and materialistic society understand mystics, mostly because it seems overwhelmingly regarded as a profoundly religious expression - so hardly practical. However, true mysticism is reinforced by a strongly secretive character trait coupled with an outgoing behavior that is ever in motion. Meaning, mystics are ever growing, becoming and creating.

Many think viruses are bad or evil, spreading as they do from one person to the next, from one country to the next, to invade and infect scores of humans and animals. But, thoughts too are contagious.

We have a natural immunity against all thoughts that do not fit in with our own purposes and beliefs, equally as we are inoculated with a wholesome trust and belief in our own thoughts about those of others.

Ideas such as 'psychic invasion' or 'psychic vampires' or 'psychic killing' are mental fears recognized as concepts.

We cannot divide mental health from physical health, nor can we divide a person's philosophy from their bodily condition.

Symbology is a language. Anyone who truly seeks to know their self should speak this language. Mostly, humans see symbols as physical objects, and it is for this reason that they are not seen at all. Rightly, symbols are the means of inner reality. Consciousness works itself through every symbol possible; the more symbols it has encountered, the better.

"Do you think god lives in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he created?"
- Dr. Romero, from the movie, Spy Kids II

"By the way, Piglet, I've been thinking about that sign by your house ... "

"You mean 'TRESPASSERS W'?"

"Yes. That was your grandfather's name, you said."

"Yes - Trespassers William."

"Well, he must have been a rather large pig to put up such a tall sign."

"Er .. Well .. He didn't put it up himself. A friend did it for him."

"A friend?"

"Yes, another sort of animal. A tall sort of animal."

"You mean, like a giraffe?"

"Yes, yes - a giraffe. That was it."

"It must have been an amusing friendship, a pig and a giraffe. I didn't know giraffes could be found around here."

"They can't, " said Piglet. "Ordinarily. But this giraffe was over here on an Exchange Program."

"Oh? What did we send in exchange?"

"Er ... A box of weasels."

"That doesn't sound like a very fair exchange."

"Well, it was a large box."

"The devils are not hostile to man except in so far as man is a friend of God. It is they who have been responsible for every kind of technical progress: from them mankind learned the arts of iron working, brewing and distilling; the Devil himself discovered fire, built the first mill, and constructed the first wagon. The art of reading and writing was one of his gifts to mankind. All these were bestowed to make man independent of God and so break the link whereby man was able to help God in governing the world."
- P.D. Ouspensky, Talks with a Devil

"In human nature, evil denotes only the polarity of matter and Spirit, a struggle of life between the two manifested Principles in Space and Time, which principles are one per se, inasmuch as they are rooted in the Absolute. In Kosmos, the equilibrium must be preserved. The operations of the two contraries produce harmony, like the centripetal and centrifugal forces which are necessary to each other - mutually inter-dependent - "in order that both should live". If one is arrested, the action of the other will become immediately self-destructive."
- Madame Blavatsky, The Secret Doctrine

"All nature is but art, unknown to thee;
All chance, direction, which thou canst not see;
All discord, harmony not understood;
All partial evil, universal good;
And, spite of pride, in erring reason's spite,
One truth is clear,
Whatever is, is right."
- Alexander Pope, Essay on Man

The entity that we are is not a precious gift presented to some god like a girl's virginity. Nor is loosing identity a fine gift to any receiver, for there is none to receive it. The idea of 'loosing' or 'saving' a soul is grossly misunderstood.

We are incipient gods. Our soul, our entity is the overall identity of personal manifestation, therefore it is free to express itself as far as its imagination, and beyond. Every moment - whether awareness exists or not - it swirls and surges, changing, morphing, becoming or not becoming to suit our expression. This is the nature of soul-entity: It is highly individualized creatively chaotic energy.

"Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
and then is heard no more; it is a tale told by an idiot,
full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."
- William Shakespeare, Macbeth Act 5, Scene 5

God is an idea. Just as the body you now have is the materialization of an idea - the idea of self within physical reality. The idea of god is that of creation. Not 'the' creator of the physical universe but the idea of creation within each of us. The idea of 'jesus' or 'buddha' or 'odin' or nothing at all is a creation of self - which is why they exist, in that they have been created, and are being perpetuated, by self.

God only exists through our own existence, just as gender and personality are also assigned. Your personal god then is what you want, what you expect, what you have come to realize, and so will forever change as your ideas of god and self change.

"Give yourself over to absolute pleasure. Swim the warm waters of sins of the flesh - erotic nightmares beyond any measure, and sensual daydreams to treasure forever. Can't you just see it? Don't dream it, be it."
- Dr. Frankenfurter

Dominance and submission are used in both religious and sexual terms. In truth, dominance and submission are areas of consciousness. This is how religion has tapped into love and devotion - through dominance and submission - for state-political gain, because these things create a sense of blanket emotion. Careful that these things - dominance/submission, love/devotion - do not distort and exaggerate your earthy tendencies and so cloud free expression over conformity.
- Ninhursag Ki

"Many a fool has sought to oppose my diabolical will, only to find out later that they probably shouldn't have tried to do that."
- Cthulhu

"I hath dreamed the dreams of the pre-human Serpent-Folk, and communed with long-dead reptiles: and eagerly watched through the Ages, the unending sorrows and suffering of humankind. I await the day when the hand of doom shall rise, and cast aside the remnants of a jaded, decayed, war-exhausted mankind: and Those who Crawl and Slither shall again inherit the Earth."
- Saurian Meditation, album

As humans we are part of the trans-species consciousness, with animals and plants. Even so, many humans do not focus their consciousness in this area or otherwise identify with it. As a result most humans do not understand the greater organic mobility that they possess, so are not able to perceive the unified whole that is part of their physical reality.
- Ninhursag Ki

"What is the ape to man? A laughing-stock, a thing of shame. And just the same shall man be to the Superman: a laughing-stock, a thing of shame ..
.. Lo, I teach you the Superman: he is that lightning, he is that frenzy!"
- Friedrich Nietzsche

Serpent and Horse - one is above the other below.

Serpent - pure energy, Rita, renewal, deep mind, turning wheel.

Horse - death and rites of passage, surging Void, primal chaos, unconscious and instinctive, intuitive.

Isa, Hagal, Ka - the unmoving mobility of power.

Isa - female creation, joining, bonding, close-at-hand.

Hagal - protection, radiance, self-mastery.

Ka - power, generation, ability, artfulness.

From the movie Constantine:

Angela: "I guess god has a plan for all of us."

Constantine: "God's a kid with an ant farm, lady. He's not planning anything."

"Illusion is the dust the devil throws in the eyes of the foolish."
- Minna Thomas Antrim

"Stop the way of them that would persecute you. Let those who devise thine undoing be hurled back to confusion and infamy. Let them be as chaff before the cyclone and after they have fallen rejoice in thine own salvation. Then all thy bones shall say pridefully, "Who is like unto me? Have I not been too strong for mine adversaries? Have I not delivered MYSELF by mine own brain and body?"
- The Book of Satan, 4:4-5

Someone wrote this on an email list I participate on. I agree with this statement:

"If you feel the need to pointlessly defend your belief endlessly, you're clinging to hard. It's become iconic. Something that "defines" you - not something you LIVE. If you feel the need to be dogmatic and back anything up that gets said by the "big dawgs" [snip] Better to be the Fool - who knows No-Thing and can be Any-Thing. That's where it's at. .. Doubt everything. Question EVERYTHING."

Not for me, the way of the religious mendicant.

Not for me the monestary.

Not for me to retire from the world.

I choose the way of a Cunning Man - artful and subtle, adept and Knowing, ingenious and capable.

I choose to be awake to every aspect of being.
I choose Temperance - between land and sea.
I choose Star, kneeling like a swastika.
I choose Fool looking upward, stepping off.

There are those who will discount religion as insignificant because it was 'created by men'. To these folk I say, 'Religion is DOing'.

Religion is not something created or thought or even felt, but something LIVED. Those who understand this become imbued with brilliance. Those who touch this are transformed.

All the strength given to gods resides within man, even the ability to live forever.

Soon, all religions will reach their peak - a condition of crisis - for folk will realize that spirituality is found only through the inner senses, that consciousness is open-ended, and identity is not dependent upon the bodymind alone.

Organizations within organizations. Pathways that converge to seperate. Courses that flow together yet some lead to Set and some do not. Only he knows which is true. Search if you must, there is no finding, no key, no one doorway. Look if you will but look all your life - one upon the other - and never find, never be fulfilled. Not a web or a net but a turning wheel with a crank. Do not be fooled by the wheel, captured by its turning. Take hold of the crank!

"It is Lucifer,
The Son of Mystery;
And since God suffers him to be,
He, too, is God's minister,
And labors for some good
By us not understood."
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, from Christus - The Goldend Legend

"I call'd the devil, and he came,
And with wonder his form did I closely scan;
He is not ugly, and is not lame,
But really a handsome and charming man.
A man in the prime of life is the devil,
Obliging, a man of the world, and civil;
A diplomatist too, well skill'd in debate,
He talks quite glibly of church and state."
- Heinrich Heine, from The Return Home

"Now, now my good man, this is no time for making enemies."
- Voltaire, speaking upon his deathbed when a priest asked him to renounce Satan.

nahash = 'snake', Sumerian, from *nhsh, 'to decipher, to find out'.

naga = 'snake; fertility, strength', Sanskrit.

nagash = 'snake; serpent', Abyssinian, also the title of their kings.

nacha = 'snake; serpent', Biblical Hebrew.

There is a brotherhood of the snake, a lineage that courses like a deep underground stream of consciousnesss throughout all time, all lives.

"The numbers of the Serpent are sixty-six, and six hundred and sixty-six, and the parts thereof. Because in the coil of the cycle, behold the distances are two-thirds of a circle, whether it be a hundred or a thousand, or three times a thousand. Thus does the Great Serpent rolleth up the heavens, and braideth the firmament into a cyclic coil. None can magnify this by giving it a name - not 'Him' or 'Te-in' or 'Ba'al' or 'God' - for That is the circle without beginning or end. That is the majesty that compasses the multiverse."
- Ereškigal, the Book of Stars

"Eternal Taranus - Drawer of Sword - Causer of Sores!
Birthed of Lightening, Feet of Stone, Arms of Oak,
Skull of Starshine - make Fast about me!

Cut down my enemies, scattering their pieces to the wind.
Let the Black Dog come for them, filling his belly.
Let my coming be filled with fear!"

- family prayer, Clan O'Healy

kindly provided by Yngona Desmond
author, Völuspá - Seiðr as Wyrd Consciousness
http://tinyurl.com/h75d6

"Growth cycles - such as kundalini rising or shaktipat, for example - would be frightening if we were not prepared for them. Needless to say, it is best to experience these things when fully ready for them, so that we may know them directly. Once done, there is nothing left to learn, nothing left to do because the true nature of our soul - and all that, that is - is rendered instantaneous and complete."
- Ninhursag ki

"I went to her of my own free will.
I went there wearing my self, bearing my soul.

In the Underworld - at each of Her Seven Gates - She had me stripped bear.
She removed from me all that I thought of my self.
She removed from me - and I let Her - till I stood bare in who I really am.

Only then did I truly see Her - Ereškigal!

She was huge and dark and smelt of moist earth.
She wore a crown of Seven Stars and a robe of liquid lapis.
Her face was fierce like a lion - with a predator's smile.
She who is the Devourer - Ereškigal!

She is all that I aspire to be, all that I have yet to learn, all that remains buried within.
She is what I have yet to be.

Ereškigal, my grandmother!
Ereškigal, my mother!
Ereškigal, my sister!
Ereškigal, my self!"

- Ninhursag ki

When asked to explain seiðr, Yngona Desmond, author and seiðwoman replied: "You know that movie The Sixth Sense, where the kid says, 'I see dead people. All the time.'? Well, seiðr is like that, except I do not see just those who have passed on - ghosts and the like - but animated bodies with blind or ignorant souls. Those are the real dead."

"How many more simulated worlds like Earth are there?"
- The 13th Floor (movie)

"No soul is forever ignorant. Those who adhere to the idea of sin lack a fundamental trust in their original nature, of the soul, and All That Is. These 'lost souls' focus upon a misconception of what is good while fearing the perception of evil."
- Ninhursag ki

"Experience follows expectation - we get what we focus on. Which explains why those who understand that reality is self-created have the least difficulty in life. Likewise a theology of dichotomy. If we believe that every good must be met by bad, or that every bad must be met by good, then we bind ourselves into a system of reality that is highly limiting. One that contains the seeds of great torment."
- Ninhursag ki

"Seth earns by merit what the Mad God receives begrudgingly from fear and guilt."
- Ninhursag-ki

"I do not fear Seth or Satan or any devil, but I watch my back among those who worship the Mad God."
- Ninhursag-ki

"This disclosure was given by Adam to his son Seth in his seven hundredth year.
And he said: "Listen to my words, my son Seth. When the Mad One created me out of the earth, along with Eve your mother, I went along with her in a glory which she had seen in the Aeon from which she came forth. She taught me the word of Gnosis of the Eternal God. And we resembled the great eternal angels, for we were higher than the Mad God who created us."

After thus informing us once again of the spiritually superior status of Eve, the scripture goes on to recount how the Mad Creator turned against Adam and Eve, robbing them of their glory and their knowledge. Humans now served the Mad Creator "in fear and in slavery", so Adam stated. While previously immortal, Adam now knew that his days were numbered. Therefore, he said he now wanted to pass on what he knew to Seth and his descendants.

In the prediction it becomes apparent that "Seth and his seed" would continue to experience gnosis, but that they would be subject to many grave tribulations. The first of these would be the flood, during which angels would rescue the Gnostic race of Seth and hide them in a secret place. Noah, on the other hand, would advise his sons to serve the Mad Creator "in fear and slavery all the days of your life."

After the return of the illumined people of Seth's kind, the creator would once again wrathfully turn against them and try to destroy them by raining fire, sulfur, and asphalt down on them - an allusion, perhaps, to the story of Sodom and Gomorrah. Once again many of the Gnostics would be saved by being taken by great angels to a place above the domain of the evil powers.

Much later there would be a new era with the coming of the man of light - Phoster - who would teach gnosis to all.

"This is the hidden knowledge of Adam which he gave to Seth, which is the holy baptism of those who know the imperishable Gnosis through those who are born of the Logos, through the imperishable Illuminator, who himself came from the holy seed of Seth."

- exerpt and commentary from the Apocalypse of Adam

"We venerate the serpent because God has made it the cause of Gnosis for mankind.
Ialdabaoth - the Mad Demiurge who was the 'god of the Jews' - did not want men to have any recollection of the Mother or of the Father on high.
It was the serpent, who by tempting them, brought them Gnosis;
who taught the man and the woman the complete knowledge of the mysteries from on high. That is why Ialdabaoth, mad with fury, cast it down from the heavens."
- St. Epiphanius, Adversus Haereses

"The serpent was wiser than all the animals that were in Eden, and he spoke truthfully to Eve, saying: 'On the day when you eat from the tree which is in the midst of Eden, the eyes of your mind will be opened.' "
- The Testimony of Truth

I am the son of that which reigns over all the earth.
I am the son of that which encircles the globe.
I am related to that which is beyond the ocean and whose tail is in its own mouth.
It is I who spoke to Eve in Eden, speaking to her of the truth,
that which the Mad One would not let her know.

"The one who has knowledge is a free person.
But the free person does not sin, for the one who sins is a slave of sin "
– Gospel of Philip 77.15.

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I am a multidimensional infinite act.

Each probability of being - every thought - is brought into actuality and existence.

Each probablility of being - every thought - is an infinite creative act that creates for itself infinite dimensions in which fulfillment is possible.

I walk the Fearless Path, called as sacred Witness.

There is nothing I will not Witness, no image or vision I will not see and touch with you.
There is nothing that will make me look away.

I will not challenge, defeat, or protect you from the demons that are yours.
But I will stand with you and offer you my courage, while you face them yourself.

I carry the tragedies I have witnessed in my life with me.
They are no longer wounds that define me -
they are scars that shape me, giving form and strength that I would not have otherwise.

There are no Fears I will not face with you.