Friday, June 30, 2006

Gentle and strange, empty and timeless;
Empire ruin, once great, now virginal white stone.
Fixed like a beetle to a string,
Circling 'round a haunted world of tomorrow,
Beautiful every inch, of Vicarage embroidery.

-Ninhursag Ki

Thursday, June 29, 2006

"Death is nothing to us,
since when we are,
death has not come,
and when death has come,
we are not."
-Epicuris, Letter to Menoeceus

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

"Some werewolves were transformed by sorcery and are human and consistent with an acquired taste for raw flesh. Some Bavarian peasants caught a werewolf and chained it to a tree. The next morning it was gone. Greatly perplexed they consulted the local priest who told them that their next werewolf captive should be chained by the leg. In the morning they would find a Lutheran."
-Alphonse DuBois, 1875

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

"We would walk over the names of Vincent Price, Boris Karloff and Bela Lugosi, never, ever thinking that our names would ever be on the Walk of Fame - that is really quite a privilege to be here."

-Alice Cooper upon receiving a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame

Monday, June 26, 2006

"It was on a dreary night of November, that I beheld the accomplishment of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to agony, I collected the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet. It was already one in the morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open; it breathed hard, and a convulsive motion agitated its limbs."

-Frankenstein - Or The Modern Prometheus, by Mary Shelley

Sunday, June 25, 2006

"Where do I take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side
So tear me open, pour me out
The things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me,
so hold me until it sleeps

Just like a curse, just like a stray
You feed it once and now it stays

So tear me open, but beware
The things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I'm clean

It grips you solely, it stains you solely
It hates you solely, it holds you solely

So tell me why you've choosen me
Don't want your grip, don't want your greed

Tear me open, make you gone,
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me,
So hold me until it sleeps

Tear me open, make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shakes me,
So hold me up until it sleeps"

-Until It Sleeps, written by James Hetfield of Metallica. The song is about cancer and how it killed both of Hetfield's parents. Being Christian Scientists, neither of them sought medical treatment, believing that faith and God would heal them. Both of Hetfield's parents succumbed to the disease.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

"Meester snyt die Keye ras - myne name is lubbert das!"

Friday, June 23, 2006

"The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague.
Who shall say where the one ends and where the other begins?"

-Edgard Allan Poe, from The Premature Burial, 1844

Thursday, June 22, 2006

"I have never seen evil, never known evil - organic or otherwise. Ive seen some things that were new to my experience, but I think 'evil' and 'Satan' and the-devil-made-me-do-it is how simply minds seek understanding. So, the Qliphoth - and other similar entities - are
not evil in my weltenschauung."

-Ninhursag Ki

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

"Slumber, watcher, till the spheres,
Six and twenty thousand years
Have revolv'd, and I return
To the spot where now I burn.
Other stars anon shall rise
To the axis of the skies;
Stars that soothe and stars that bless
With a sweet forgetfulness:
Only when my round is o'er
Shall the past disturb thy door."
-Polaris, by H. P. Lovecraft, written in 1918

Tuesday, June 20, 2006


This topic came upon an Internet list I am on. Someone wrote that the 'rule of secrecy' was that someone would reveal it, and that in our current time period secrets were not necessary.

My responce back was, "Secrecy is part of our very being, its in our DNA. Most animals conceal their den or nest from predators, and humans actively conceal aspects of themselves from others. What family does not have a 'family secret' or some 'bones in the closet'? Something mutually agreed upon that 'we just dont talk about'.

Keeping a secret is nothing short of confidentiality and privacy. Mostly, secrets teach discernment and discrimination, within ourselves and others. Therefore, secrets teach us of personal value and worth.

The word 'secret' is rooted in Indo-European krei- and means, "sieve, discriminate, distinguish". Varients include 'crime, criminal; judgment', which indicates that revealing a secret was unlawful. The Greek varients include, 'separate, decide, judge; to explain', which indicates that a secret allows us to determine who can be trusted and who cannot; or who is able to receive additionaly information.

Many seek the 'mystery' behind secret societies and the secrets that they may hold, but in truth, there are no secrets that cannot be found through diligent self-inquiry. Which is why many seek out such schools: To learn from those who have been-there/done-that. The secrets found in secret societies are, again, centered on value, on integrity, on honesty, on loyalty. Someone who 'breaks' or reveals a secret then simply cannot be trusted.

"It is wise to seek a secret; and honest not to reveal one."- William Penn

Monday, June 19, 2006

"It is far better to grasp the Universe as it really is than to persist in delusion,
however satisfying and reassuring."
- Carl Sagan, The Demon-Haunted World

Sunday, June 18, 2006

"Pactum Expressum!

Palas Beliar Azinomas!

Palas Satan Azinomas!

Bagahi Iaca Mastema!

Bagahi Iaca Sammael!

Pactum Tacitum Azazel!
Pactum Tacitum Lucifuge!
Pactum Tacitum Beelzebub!

Xilka, Xilka, Besa, Besa!"

- Pactum Tacitum, or the Silent Pact

Saturday, June 17, 2006


The Devil: How would you like to make one simple decision that will change your life forever?

Elliot Richards: Ok, I'm glad scientology works for you but ..

- Bedazzled, the movie

Friday, June 16, 2006

Loosing My Religion

"Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me

That's me in the corner ..
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you

I thought I saw you try ..

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees ..
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much .. "


Thursday, June 15, 2006


Death is imaginative intelligence and harmonious elegance.

What else is the Secret Doctrine but Death?

The ego must die, the personality must die, for there is no 'totality' no life no being not even no thing. There is only the nonfearful divinity of shining darkness.

Scorpion, Serpent and Eagle -
Poision, Weaving and Soaring.

Hail the Darkness!
Hail the Not Knowing!
Hail the Putrification!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Where is the Wild?

Have we lost the wildness? Do we no longer become as wild things? Has concrete and steel become our cage?

Why does the delirium of metamorphosis so rarely come over us? Why did it happen more in the past than today - or is this but an illusion?

Was our past cursed, so that man became wolf? Does the wolf walk among us now? Has their hair changed, but not their heart, so this is why we cannot see them?

What will it take for us to become savage once more? More than dropping bombs and killing babies but ripping at the throat of our enemy with bared teeth.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Being a Mystic

To an onlooker, mystics tend to the intransigence, but in truth are simply profoundly intuitive and innocent before nature, in that they have such a literal acceptance of nature's manifestations and of their own being and creations within that framework.

Few in our extroverted and materialistic society understand mystics, mostly because it seems overwhelmingly regarded as a profoundly religious expression - so hardly practical. However, true mysticism is reinforced by a strongly secretive character trait coupled with an outgoing behavior that is ever in motion. Meaning, mystics are ever growing, becoming and creating.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Many think viruses are bad or evil, spreading as they do from one person to the next, from one country to the next, to invade and infect scores of humans and animals. But, thoughts too are contagious.

We have a natural immunity against all thoughts that do not fit in with our own purposes and beliefs, equally as we are inoculated with a wholesome trust and belief in our own thoughts about those of others.

Ideas such as 'psychic invasion' or 'psychic vampires' or 'psychic killing' are mental fears recognized as concepts.

We cannot divide mental health from physical health, nor can we divide a person's philosophy from their bodily condition.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Symbology is a language. Anyone who truly seeks to know their self should speak this language. Mostly, humans see symbols as physical objects, and it is for this reason that they are not seen at all. Rightly, symbols are the means of inner reality. Consciousness works itself through every symbol possible; the more symbols it has encountered, the better.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

"Do you think god lives in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he created?"
- Dr. Romero, from the movie, Spy Kids II

Friday, June 09, 2006

"By the way, Piglet, I've been thinking about that sign by your house ... "

"You mean 'TRESPASSERS W'?"

"Yes. That was your grandfather's name, you said."

"Yes - Trespassers William."

"Well, he must have been a rather large pig to put up such a tall sign."

"Er .. Well .. He didn't put it up himself. A friend did it for him."

"A friend?"

"Yes, another sort of animal. A tall sort of animal."

"You mean, like a giraffe?"

"Yes, yes - a giraffe. That was it."

"It must have been an amusing friendship, a pig and a giraffe. I didn't know giraffes could be found around here."

"They can't, " said Piglet. "Ordinarily. But this giraffe was over here on an Exchange Program."

"Oh? What did we send in exchange?"

"Er ... A box of weasels."

"That doesn't sound like a very fair exchange."

"Well, it was a large box."

Thursday, June 08, 2006

"The devils are not hostile to man except in so far as man is a friend of God. It is they who have been responsible for every kind of technical progress: from them mankind learned the arts of iron working, brewing and distilling; the Devil himself discovered fire, built the first mill, and constructed the first wagon. The art of reading and writing was one of his gifts to mankind. All these were bestowed to make man independent of God and so break the link whereby man was able to help God in governing the world."
- P.D. Ouspensky, Talks with a Devil

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

"In human nature, evil denotes only the polarity of matter and Spirit, a struggle of life between the two manifested Principles in Space and Time, which principles are one per se, inasmuch as they are rooted in the Absolute. In Kosmos, the equilibrium must be preserved. The operations of the two contraries produce harmony, like the centripetal and centrifugal forces which are necessary to each other - mutually inter-dependent - "in order that both should live". If one is arrested, the action of the other will become immediately self-destructive."
- Madame Blavatsky, The Secret Doctrine

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

"All nature is but art, unknown to thee;
All chance, direction, which thou canst not see;
All discord, harmony not understood;
All partial evil, universal good;
And, spite of pride, in erring reason's spite,
One truth is clear,
Whatever is, is right."
- Alexander Pope, Essay on Man

Monday, June 05, 2006

The entity that we are is not a precious gift presented to some god like a girl's virginity. Nor is loosing identity a fine gift to any receiver, for there is none to receive it. The idea of 'loosing' or 'saving' a soul is grossly misunderstood.

We are incipient gods. Our soul, our entity is the overall identity of personal manifestation, therefore it is free to express itself as far as its imagination, and beyond. Every moment - whether awareness exists or not - it swirls and surges, changing, morphing, becoming or not becoming to suit our expression. This is the nature of soul-entity: It is highly individualized creatively chaotic energy.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

"Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
and then is heard no more; it is a tale told by an idiot,
full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."
- William Shakespeare, Macbeth Act 5, Scene 5

Saturday, June 03, 2006

God is an idea. Just as the body you now have is the materialization of an idea - the idea of self within physical reality. The idea of god is that of creation. Not 'the' creator of the physical universe but the idea of creation within each of us. The idea of 'jesus' or 'buddha' or 'odin' or nothing at all is a creation of self - which is why they exist, in that they have been created, and are being perpetuated, by self.

God only exists through our own existence, just as gender and personality are also assigned. Your personal god then is what you want, what you expect, what you have come to realize, and so will forever change as your ideas of god and self change.

Friday, June 02, 2006

"Give yourself over to absolute pleasure. Swim the warm waters of sins of the flesh - erotic nightmares beyond any measure, and sensual daydreams to treasure forever. Can't you just see it? Don't dream it, be it."
- Dr. Frankenfurter

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Dominance and submission are used in both religious and sexual terms. In truth, dominance and submission are areas of consciousness. This is how religion has tapped into love and devotion - through dominance and submission - for state-political gain, because these things create a sense of blanket emotion. Careful that these things - dominance/submission, love/devotion - do not distort and exaggerate your earthy tendencies and so cloud free expression over conformity.
- Ninhursag Ki